It has been over 4 months since my last blog post and it is the longest break in my blogging history. So why the long absence?
The absence has been due to the fact that I have been struggling with the ever-increasing intense Ascension energies. In March and May, the energies were quite reasonable in that I could deal with the pent up energies in the mornings and evenings, and the rest of the time I could run around and function. However, April and June energies have been as high as those of the early months of the year, and that has kept me close to bed.
In high energy months, because of the various physical discomforts, I can do pretty much nothing except lying in bed and listening to audio books or watching YouTube videos. However, in March, when the energies were quite moderate, I could run around and plant lots of house plants at home. As the result of that, now my house is full of beautiful flowering plants and quite a few have also been planted in the garden.
And in May, I ended up creating lots of accessories, many of which my make-up artist cousin Gegee sold to her clients. The head accessories in below photo is my creation.
So that being the update on my outer world, now let’s talk about my inner world. If you go back to my last blog post, back then I had set out to find Clarity in my life. And after much pondering and searching, I realized that only God can be my Clarity.
With that realized, upon further pondering and searching, I learnt that my Ego self is blocking my access to the Kingdom of God.
Since then I am increasingly growing to recognize my Ego self when it is in function, but I haven’t had much success in stopping it when it is generating anger, hurt and other destructive emotions and behaviors. So unfortunately, at the moment, I am still a slave to my Ego, but fortunately, at least I can recognize it when it is running the show.
Besides Ego, I made another important discovery in the nature of Desires. It turns out that Desires are the source of all Fears! Did you know that? I had no idea! But after I found it out, the relationship between the two looked so clear to me.
And it also explained why I was increasingly feeling no desire for any specific thing, person or circumstance. However, since God emerged as my Clarity, now I have only one specific desire and that is to commune with God.
Lastly, I also found out that the way to get to God is through my Soul, which is real me. And below quotes show the relationship between real me and the God.
So as you see, to commune with God, first I need to commune with my Soul and establish my Soul as my identity and fully embody its qualities. I don’t know how I will do it, but I trust that I will be guided.